The Cross Shining Bright on My Bookcase

Photo Property of Bethany Baptist Church

Photo Property of Bethany Baptist Church

We recently purchased a home from a wonderful couple. Some of their mail had arrived to our house in error so we decided to meet them at their church on Sunday.

It was a wonderful service. During his sermon, the Pastor referenced Psalm 139: 1-18.  I immediately remembered a dark time in my life, which He showed me that He is with us during all of our joys and our sorrows.

It was around 1985, as a newly single mom of 3 precious boys, I was about to lose everything. My husband, home, possessions, car and unbeknownst to me also my health.

I was in despair and alone in the house. I had been crying for what seemed hours. It was now midnight and I got in the car looking for an open church, wanting and needing to feel His presence.

Of course all the churches were closed and I returned back to my home sobbing. The house was dark, and I got down on my knees to pray. Why hadn’t I thought of that before?! Of course our God is everywhere, not just inside the four walls of a church.

I was praying for Him to forgive me, to remove my fears, for Him to help me out of this mess I had created and for all the consequences of my poor choices that had led me to where I now found myself.

My arms were reaching out into the Heavens pleading for peace, knowledge, answers, direction and His love.

All of a sudden I looked up and the cross sitting on my book shelf in this dark home began to glow. The entire room was aglow. I stood up rubbing my eyes in disbelief and picked up the glowing cross.

I kissed the cross and knelt down and prayed in gratitude and thanksgiving as the tears were streaming down my face. The tears of anguish, fear and pain were replaced with tears of joy and thanksgiving.

I felt a peace wash over me, as a quiet wave touches the shoreline. I wasn’t alone anymore. Despite being on the brink of losing all my material possessions and my husband, God was with me, and had been all this time. He had me in His arms and for the first time I felt safe.

“Psalm 139: 11-12
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

And verse 18:
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.”

The cross remained lit all night. I was able to finally sleep. I couldn’t remember the last time I truly rested.

When morning broke and I awakened, He was still with me, shining bright on my bookcase.

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Lisa Ladrido (66 Posts)

Lisa is an R.N. Mom Blogger and the author of Mom Blogger Buzz. She writes about Social Media, Technology, Product Reviews, Blogging Tips, Travel, Family and Health. She and her husband live in the Seattle area. They have 5 sons, 4 grandchildren and 3 furry four legged children!

48 comments for “The Cross Shining Bright on My Bookcase

  1. Robin (Massrhole Mommy)
    August 5, 2014 at 6:14 AM

    Glad you were able to find a feeling of peace. Thanks for sharing such an inspirational story!

  2. August 5, 2014 at 6:38 AM

    Thank you for sharing this.Sometimes all we need is faith.
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  3. Dee
    August 5, 2014 at 6:48 AM

    Oh my – what a story! I am so glad that you were able to find your peace!
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  4. August 5, 2014 at 7:46 AM

    Funny how God gives us peace in our hearts. You just never know how or when it will happen. Happy you found yours!
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  5. August 5, 2014 at 7:56 AM

    Continued peace to you in your life. Very inspirational.

  6. August 5, 2014 at 8:31 AM

    I believe what you say that God is everywhere. I feel the same thing about my relatives who have passed away as well. I feel them often providing guidance and comfort. Glad you have found some comfort and peace as well.
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  7. August 5, 2014 at 9:54 AM

    Sometimes all we need is a little faith to get us through the day.

  8. August 5, 2014 at 11:31 AM

    What a beautiful reminder of God at work! He is such an amazing God, and deserves all the praise he can get. I am so glad he got you through your storm.
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  9. August 5, 2014 at 12:20 PM

    what an inspirational story so happy you found peace.
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  10. August 5, 2014 at 12:23 PM

    Thank you for sharing such an inspirational story. I do truly believe that God is always with us, especially when we need Him most. Even if we don’t always think He is there.
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  11. August 5, 2014 at 1:46 PM

    Thank you for sharing such a meaningful moment in your life. I’m so glad you felt comforted by God’s presence.
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  12. August 5, 2014 at 2:26 PM

    We all go through a time like this. So nice to see you getting through it with faith.
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  13. August 5, 2014 at 2:52 PM

    What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it.
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  14. August 5, 2014 at 4:11 PM

    Sometimes it is odd how we are meant to be in certain places at certain times, to hear certain words. x
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  15. August 5, 2014 at 5:44 PM

    That’s an amazing story – how lucky are you to have experienced it!
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  16. August 5, 2014 at 7:50 PM

    Thank you for sharing your story. Glad you were able to find peace :)
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  17. August 6, 2014 at 4:58 AM

    Thank you for sharing your story! Glad things are working out.
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  18. maria
    August 6, 2014 at 5:15 AM

    What a inspiring story! Thank you for sharing and the reminder of finding peace.

  19. August 6, 2014 at 9:26 AM

    Wonderful story thank you so much for sharing it with us! I’m glad you found your peace
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  20. August 6, 2014 at 12:29 PM

    What a wonderful experience. I love when you see the little reminders :)
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  21. August 6, 2014 at 4:23 PM

    It’s wonderful that you’re sharing your testimony. That peace is not unknown to me, I am very happy to say.
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  22. August 6, 2014 at 6:24 PM

    I love when we see exactly what He wants us to see just as we need it most. THanks for the inspiring post.
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  23. August 6, 2014 at 9:11 PM

    God really is everywhere. Thanks for sharing this!

  24. August 18, 2014 at 10:21 AM

    Sometimes, I feel as though you hear my inner prayers. I don’t know how you do it…but sometimes you really do. I absolutely LOVED this story! So raw, so genuine, so beautiful. It spoke to me this morning…thank you my beautiful friend for sharing such a touching story of a time in your life! BIG HUGS xoxo
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